Synopsis:
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with
plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without
wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent
crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into
nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage
to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide
Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username
FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a
partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in
common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their
suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really
wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die
or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their
energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
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I am sorely disappointed at how this book turned out in the
end. It started really well, but then it escalated quickly.
The premise was really promising. My Heart and Other Black Holes is a story supposedly about
depression and suicide. I say supposedly
because the story got lost somewhere along the way. Sure, the suicide bit was
firmly in the plot, but the depression bit, which was the whole reason behind
the desire for suicide, went up in smoke, and romance materialized in its place.
I never thought I would dislike romance in a story, but I did in this book
because it was the primary reason why the story went in shambles.
The romance part ruined some of the important things in this
book: Aysel’s recovery from depression, making amends with her family, and finally
understanding her father. These all became loose ends in the end because Aysel
suddenly fell in love and all she could think about was saving Roman from his
depression, too. That’s just a no-no for me. I know they say love conquers all,
but not just like that. I’m really
sad about how love is portrayed in this book.
I don't recommend this book to people who are expecting a justified recovery from depression.
~ Zee
Sorry, folks. This book is just not for me.
Love does not conquer all in the case of depression, so thanks for the heads up. I've been battling it for 4 years, mostly anxiety, and everyday is a Godsend that I am still here. Not something I like to share but it is what it is. People need to understand depression better, and glossing over it is a big no no for me. Thanks for your honest review!
ReplyDeleteI think depression was explained well at first, but it's the recovery of the heroine I'm having trouble with. All of a sudden she was full of hope and confidence just because she fell in love. I mean, really? Just--no. Her recovery wasn't justified at all.
DeleteThank you for dropping by and reading my review, Lekeisha!
~ Zee